Like most blog posts this is coming in the light of some heavy procrastination but I will not here any complains about it.
Recently it has come to my attention that it is that time of year when people have to face up to the fact that maybe life isn't quite working out the way they pictured back at New Years. This could mean new relationships or lack there of, a single decision seemingly controlling your whole life, a future that you aren't sure you signed up for or maybe you've just been really struggling to put one foot in front of the other recently. I get where y'all are coming from, and I am no better and there are plenty of times I have been staring at the ceiling at 3am wondering what the hell is wrong with me, hell I could do it tonight... who knows. What I do know is that sleepless night after sleepless night I've stared out the window and inevitably the sun has come up whether I want it to or not.
Now my playing in a band has really changed my outlook on life in the last few years and it was the big inspiration behind the name of this blog. I think what music, especially the kind of music that informs punk music, has to offer is a couple different aspects on how to deal with different situations because punk rock is very emotional and tapped into how regular people think about and handle them. So today I was thinking about songs that have had me banging my head lately and how they can help out some friends. First "Smooth Seas Don't Make Good Sailors" by Neck Deep is a song that I admittedly took some time to get into before it took over my life. It's chorus is something that I think everyone deserves to hear every once and a while:
"The World's a fucked up place, but it depends on how you see it, life is full change, you grow up and then you feel it."
What I first and foremost love about this is just how truthful it is. A lot of the time people will tell you that things aren't so bad and all you feel is that they don't understand... Neck Deep understands. But it's more than that. "It depends on how you see it" tells you that yeah life sucks but that doesn't mean it's pointless.
After Neck Deep, the band Broadside has been my jam recently. Their song Story Teller has just been in my head for days and I think I know why. It's a self reflective tale of a guy who just hasn't had things go his way. He doesn't trust himself in love or really anything else. But the chorus he does a pretty good job rationalizing to himself his short comings.
"Cause I'm not a liar, maybe a story teller, but when I promised you the world I was just trying to make it better."
So don't take your loses too hard, especially if you were trying, there will always be a next day, this is a lesson I have to remind myself of all too often. I find myself pinned up against dead line after dead line with no end in sight and I just get so tired. So I wish it would all end. But life sucks then I keep going.
The Last song that has been with me since it came out in 2005 (that's 11 years of attachment for Fonts) is Over My Head by The Fray. This song is pretty much the combination of all the angsty middle school memories I've ever had combined with all my success stories of cramming and barely squeaking by I have. It really is up there with a couple Fray songs that lie very close to my heart and that get me going on those dark days.
"Everyone knows I'm in, Over my head, Over my head, With eight seconds left in overtime, She's on your mind"
This is the song I chose to end with because to me it has so many different meanings. "She" can be literally anyone or anything going on in your life that your trying to get over and that life just won't let you. So That's why this song means so much to me because by the end of the song it seems the singer is still in his position but he's going to try his best to get there.
And that's all you can ever ask of someone.
Always remember: Life Sucks, but it's gonna be a while before you die, so still try and make the most of it. -Fonts 2016
Love and Good Vibes always,
Fonts
