Apologies

Apologies in advance for this artfully apologetic atrocity. Alright that's above the allotted amount of alliteration...

Sorry, I'll stop now.

Lately this seems to be every other text message I receive:

"Sorry Dude"
"I'm so sorry"
"Sorry about this"
"Sorry"

and the list goes on. Now lately there have been some problems on the old home front that I've needed to attend to. Needless to say this led to some very late night and more than a few deep texts and phone conversations. But as I tried to help people who's biggest problem seemed to be a crisis of self confidence, this is willing assistance that more times than not I initiated, these people could do little more than apologize, and that kind of bothers me. Now I'm saying I'm annoyed with these people by any stretch but to me you apologize when you do something wrong, that's why I  was such a pain in the ass when I was younger, cause I would do something wrong but I wouldn't see it that way and my mom would yell and I would yell... anyway my childhood discipline is beside the point. The people I've been dealing with really have nothing to apologize for, at least to me. I know what I sign up for when I text you randomly at 11 or pick up the phone at 2am so in the future please don't apologize. I'm more concerned with how you are than the amount of sleep I'm getting, but on that note, please just tell me what's going on... I makes my job a lot easier when I don't have to trick it out of you. I never judge, I usually know everyone involved, I never tell (unless its necessary for your sake) and I will never, ever, think less of you. If people can't tell their friends their secrets with the confidence that the friend will keep their best interests, then they really aren't friends. I like to think I'm a pretty good friend, listener, and talker, in the sense that I can talk through things, talk, text, blog, post, what ever. Recently I've felt a little closer to some of you guys than others, and I simultaneously happy and sad about that, because I like getting closer but when people drift apart for what ever reason, that stinks and I wish it didn't happen.

The long and the short of it is: for a long time I have always been the last person to hear about stuff, like, really important stuff, and I know you guys are big boys and girls but sometimes it's just better to look outside one's self to fix a problem and that's what I'm here for. So please next time we talk, tell me what's up, and what ever you do, no matter how much time has passed, don't apologize. You are more than your past mistakes.

Your 19 year old Confessions box,

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Bonus Round: Shout out to 6 people who are having a tough time of it right about now, good luck


1. Number One in Self Esteem: Trophy Wives
2. She's Just Another Girl: The Killers
3. Keep your Head Up: Andy Grammer
4. She Sang to Me: Marc Anthony
5. She Will Be Loved: Maroon 5
6. Sloppy Seconds/ Cardboard Castles: George Watsky